My Personal Struggle

I'm conflicted today! I have to write a paper about something that effects my life on a daily basis. It's like a tug of war between wanting to indulge myself into learning as much as I can but, I know this process will hurt and uncover pain that my family has been dealing with for a very long time. I wonder though if this is all part of the healing process? Should I restrain myself from getting emotionally involved, or is this going to give me the peace I seek? So many questions to answer. I feel as though I will get through this, and come out stronger and better equipped to handle future situations that may arise. Arise, what a wonderful word to describe just how to approach this challenge. Picking my uneasy feelings up and throwing them over my shoulder, I will carry this hardship till the bitter end, and come out more inspired. Pressing on will be the only way to heal from the pain I consider reality.